God and His Purpose...

God works in mysterious ways...

I had the most peculiar dream last night. Having a dream that I can recall in and of itself is noteworthy, but this one seemed especially distracting to me. I don't remember much other than I was the father of a newborn. The newborn was especially small and especially fragile, truly per-mature in this world of trains, plains and automobiles. The most disturbing part to me was that for some reason, I was not the one taking care of the precious little one, but my sister instead. Normally I would just think to myself, " hmmm, how odd" and then dismiss it. But I don't think this dream was a fluke or even coincidence. You see lately like many 26 year old I have been pressured more and more by those around me of how "in their minds and according to what the norm of culture has taught them" I need to get married for some reason. Now please don't misunderstand me, I have been a die-hard romantic since I could crawl over to the girl next to me in per-school and plant a kiss on her, completely missing her cheek and hitting her eyeball. Okay so maybe not that young, but within a couple years it is no exaggeration.

One of the greatest dreams in my life has been to share the experience of going through this adventure called life while bringing honor and glory to God with my beautiful bride by my side. Whether in or out of a relationship I could be found day dreaming while I watched other couples. I would be dreaming of how incredible they must have felt. One of my gifts is to share in the emotions or feelings others feel on occastion simply by reading into their eyes and... feeling it. As I would watch them smile and go on about their date, not in a creepy way ;), I would hope for true success in their relationship not the broken hearts I had lived so vividly. Thankfully God has taught me a lot through those experiences and created beaty from those ashes. God is truly incredible and faithful when we decide to unyieldingly follow Him.

I just want to take this opportunity to thank and praise God for showing me that we all grow at different rates, mature at different rates, and just because you are mature enough doesn't mean the timing or situation is His best for you to be in a relationship. As I have continued to grow in my personal intimate walk with God I feel like my small understanding of the world, and God's love and creation and His purposes in what He does has blossomed. I have so much to learn and grow in experience wise before I go to join Him in heaven after dieing here. There is so much to do, and now I have embraced why I am here. It isn't about me and my desires and wants. It is about Him! My life is but dust without Him. My dreams are nothing more than a split second in time without Him. I am nothing without Him. But His glory can be everything through Him using me, my energy, my will, my submission to honor Him in all I do, say, and dwell upon in my mind. My life has bloomed and I am loving my God more than ever.

I know know, that He is the one who placed that desire to share this amazing adventure called life with someone else. I also know that His timing is perfect and beautiful. He knows what is going on in her life, heart, and mind, just as He does me. When His timing is perfect, He will have us meet. When our hearts and lives are at the place where by being joined together we would bring the most honor to Him, then we will meet. Now whether this dream I had relates or not, I think it possibly could. i think it could be a reminder to me that just because something is possible, it doesn't mean it is the best timing for it. There are many things that we can make happen in our lives, but it doesn't mean it was His perfect timing. If we seek Him, His glory, and live for Him, his providence in our lives will blow us away! Here's to His providence, His faithfulness, and my faith in Him. May all that I am, every breath, every thought, every hour of studying, every hour sleeping, every hour working, every hour exercising, every hour reading, every hour living be lived unto His glory, for without Him, we ......are...... nothing.. I Love My Jesus, and I love this gift called life that He has given me the blessing of living with its ups, its downs, and its meander arounds. ;)